An Essay

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The Front Door

What did it mean to be considered middle class in the 1950’s?

My father owned a shipyard in Larose, Louisiana. He built wooden boats used by oystermen and shrimpers tailored to their specific needs and steel-hulled boats to carry supplies and crews to offshore drilling wells. He built the house we lived in for 10 years a short distance from the shipyard on Ledet Lane in 1956. It had a formal living room decorated in fine wood paneling, a dark green, plush sofa, rough wood ceiling tiles painted a deep burgundy, and a large mahogany coffee table. It was kept in perfect order at all times. Every home I visited in that time seemed to have one of these unused rooms, some even had the furniture covered in plastic, presumably to keep its pristine condition. I imagine my father showing his blueprints to potential customers and signing contracts there. Our front door led into this room through a small foyer with a coat closet at the far end. The doorbell, when rung, was a chime that was so unfamiliar a sound that when it rang we all knew a stranger was at the door. My mother would take a moment to preen and ask us to be good. My brother and I waited behind the interior door listening with excitement and anticipation.

It was at this door that my mother greeted a World Book Encyclopedia salesman who sat with her in that special room and at the end of that week a whole new world would open up to all of us. Mom also agreed to buy (and I think this was the deal clincher for the salesman) a set of Children’s Bible Stories. My parents’ first language was French. My brother and I taught Mom the pronunciation of many English words while she read to us from the Bible stories she was so familiar with. Even at the end of their lives, Mom and dad would not have been considered educated or fluent in English.

Later on, Dad bought a Chrysler New Yorker, that he called a New York Chrysler but soon traded it for a Chevrolet Impala because he could not get used to the push button technology of the Chrysler. We all had plenty of clothes and food and good healthcare and primary education. We went to church on Sunday, (well, all but Dad) not to the Catholic Church in our town but to the First United Methodist Church of Golden Meadow.

My parents were considered wealthy by the abject poor and blue collar by the wealthy. I suppose that made us middle class. I wonder though, if today a family’s description contained everything we had then, would they be considered part of the middle class?

Completion Part Three

“When does it end?” he said. In all of recorded history there has never been a time when the whole of humanity has been at peace. The seven deadly sins in Dante’s “Inferno,” may very well be at the root of all destructive acts, but long before he wrote his first word the DSC_1088ancients suggested remedies for those sins in their storytelling. The laws of duality and polarity are at play and have been from the beginning. I am not fatalistic in this understanding but rather, realistic. I believe that all the heroic acts of tolerance and compassion are the counterbalance for mankind’s cruelty, just as day follows the night. Is it possible that the only way our stubborn species can evolve is to witness horrors that awaken our hearts to compassion? “When does it end?”   —never is the answer.

“ There will be poor always, pathetically struggling. Look at the good things you have.” Jesus in “Jesus Christ Superstar.” Adapted from Matthew 26:11

 

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“Just say, “No!” Adam”    Photo collage by Bessie Senette

Completion Part Two

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Photo by Bessie Senette

What if we could see the future before it happens?  Would we run from it, try to change it, or prepare ourselves for what’s coming?

“Seeing is believing,” they say, but there is more beyond the veil than our limited vision can ever bring into focus. Imagine if we could see it all!

Soul Sight

The canopy between heaven and earth

Splits atoms until it disappears

Beyond the veil is unknowable

Learn to love the mystery

Confusion is not your enemy

Challenging the fog will only increase its density

Instead, empower wonderment

Observe what you can

Learn what matters — if only to you

Leave the rest to God

© 2016 Bessie Adams Senette

 

Completion Part One

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The Ultimate Oxymoron

Is there really such a thing as completion? ” Cutting the Clouds, A Bayou Mystic’s Poems, Musings, and Imaginings,” is finally ready to publish after more than 9 years of effort. This project has had its share of starts and stops and many synchronistic movements that led me through door openings of miraculous possibility. But is it finished? Of course not! Now the marketing begins.  Those of you who have followed my journey with this book know that it has been a labor of love and I thank you all for your encouragement. Now (as I am found of repeating) it takes a village to raise a Bessie, so I still need you all to help this healing book thrive. Soon I will be offering opportunities to host readings, workshops and retreats.  Check out the Engage Me Page and I will keep you posted on available dates.

Engage Me

This face doesn’t disguise easily,

Showing always

My thoughts, my feelings,

Heart-on-the-sleeve reality.

 

Who could guess that I feel shy sometimes?

Inferior, insecure

Showing confidence could be play-acting

Always questioning

Have I loved enough?

 

Sometimes I mistake confidence for arrogance,

Or is it the other way around?

I’m not sure I know myself well enough yet to discern which is which.

Yet, when I speak to gatherings

From center stage

Transformation happens.

 

No longer doubtful,

Absent childish wounding,

I am whole again.

It’s how God made me.

It’s why I’m here.

So engage me and watch me shine.

 

© 2016 Bessie Adams Senette

 

Listen

When was the last time you had a deep, sustained, belly laugh? I remember when my boys were infants they would laugh at a funny face or an unexpected sound I made. I have friends who make me laugh, but more often it’s just a chuckle. I miss that side-aching, tear-inducing, loud laughter. When did I abandon that childlike state of being? I long for the voice of my inner child to sing nursery rhymes and tell knock-knock jokes and play silly pranks. It’s all in good fun after all. Fun is under rated. When you next see me, tickle my funny bone to see if I have remembered how to laugh out loud. LOL

 

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Cosmic Child

She channels love energy through her eyes,

Her heart, and her hands.

She opens her mind, body, and spirit

To the wounded souls who are lucky passers-by.

She is the Cosmic Child

Sent to point the way,

Though few understand where she is pointing.

Her blood is the blood of a savior.

Her bones contain the memories of creation.

She bleeds into our hearts and the memories flow into our marrow,

Granting us a glimpse of our original face —

The child of wonderment.

 

If we listen closely

Songs of the first sequoias,

The lost worlds,

Atlantis and Lemuria,

Oceans before Pangaea,

Rise and fall

Through her lyrical breasts,

Nourishing our infant souls,

Inviting us to join our corporal

Yet-to-be form

Reforming the bindings into

Remembered laughter.

 

When such a Mother calls

Run, don’t walk

Into her arms!

Follow her heartbeat back to joy

Let the new song play

Double Dutch,

Patty Cake,

Ollie, Ollie, Outs in free,

Hop the scotch,

And let it be.

© 2016 Bessie Adams Senette

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I sometimes let my self get caught up in dooms-day rhetoric. Woe is the world! I forget to look past the ignorance into the heart of the matter. What is really happening? Systems are failing. Belief is informed by circumstance. What can we learn from our mistakes? Are we wise enough to rebuild systems that work for everyone? Can we be peacemakers in spite of the rhetoric? Is God at work here, giving us a chance to press the restart button?

May Day Prayer

May the day come when

All that May Day heralds is

The blooming of the human spirit,

Not the booming of warship cannons and

Bombastic politicians.

Let the celebration of sacred creation

Inspire our dancing.

Let the lilies and roses

Plaster a new path where

Common, human decency

Reigns queen.

Let the sonnet be

Written in love letters not

Gutless, bathroom stall insults.

May Day!

May Day!

This ship is sinking.

Where are the Peacemakers?

Still dancing around the Maypole.

© 2016 Bessie Adams Senette

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THE VOICE OF LONGING

Sometimes I long for things I did not get and wonder how different I would be if I had gotten what I longed for, you know, the what if’s.  I suspect that the mystery will always take precedence over the knowing. But longing is the energetic force that dreams are made of so, whatever the evolution of my experiences, I continue to long and create more dreams. I believe that is humanity’s divine design.

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REBIRTH

Above my reach

Looking into the womb space of a giant oak

Long ago a felled branch left gaping.

An infant could cradle there.

 

Must and mites invite my longing child.

Fill the emptiness,

Spirit of mysterious hope,

With the wonderment of not knowing.

 

Why and how disintegrate.

So many new lives thrive inside the rot,

Feeding on the sorrow of lost dreams.

Look higher into the dappled light

Through spring green,

There are dreams yet unfolding.

© 2016 Bessie Adams Senette

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A Listening Sanctuary

In this cacophonous world perhaps it is necessary to cultivate a sense of heart listening, creating a space for re-sensitizing  the connection between our ears and heart. The planet is filled with such places. One doesn’t have to travel far or at all to see beauty that stills the heart and awakens wonderment. Be still and know…YOU are all that; the cacophony, the stillness, the beauty, the heart that listens!

God’s Software

Let’s download the upgrade.

This binary code universe could use some jazzing up.

He rested on the seventh day, so the story goes.

Still he sleeps.

What will it take to wake him up to bring about the eighth day?

–A barrage of prayer

–Another atomic blast

–A single original thought?

Perhaps if we stop the cacophony of his creation for just one minute,

Silence would wake him.

But can we live without

–Birdsong,

–Baby laughter, or

–Brooks babbling

For even one minute?

No, the eighth day won’t come until our hard drive

Is made compatible with God’s software.

© 2015 Bessie Adams Senette

 

Listen

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LONGING TO SPEAK BUT FIRST LET’S LISTEN

 Active listening is the skill set of a mature spirit. How many times have I been guilty of interrupting someone, convinced that what I have to say is more important? Cultural influences play a role in the development of listening skills certainly, but what responsibility do I have in developing greater listening skill? Technology is creating an environment that seems to approve of poor listening. We can now shout out our opinions anonymously to a global audience and choose not to listen to arguments against that opinion with one keystroke. What am I missing when I refuse to listen?

Lightening

The Lightening Rod

Catches the Lightening.

 

Be careful what you write,

Someone might read it.

 

Be careful what you say,

Someone might hear it.

 

Be careful where you go,

Someone might see you.

 

Be careful what you think,

It could lead to action

Bringing down the lightening.

 

Listen first, then

Take a chance,

Be the Lightening Rod!

© 2015 Bessie Adams Senette

Identity: Posting #3

Presently, our world is experiencing so many tragic deaths from natural disasters, war, famine, disease and senseless violence. It seems rare for someone to die of natural causes    and perhaps more rare to die in one’s own bed with the loving care of family members. Both of my parent lived long, full, lives and were cared for at home until their last breath.

For 61 years 5 months and 16 days I could identify with the role of daughter. Being parentless does not leave me feeling orphaned. Instead, I feel accomplished, the role of daughter is complete. I am still a wife, a mother, a seeker of a deeper spiritual identity. I was blessed with two loving parents for a time and barring an unthinkable tragedy, I will leave behind two sons one day. I do wonder how they will identify me then and if they will feel orphaned or accomplished.

 

Musing: Recognition                   Excerpt from, ” Cutting the Clouds…”

 Identify Me

There is a tiny birthmark on my left foot about an inch above my little toe–just a dark dot about the size of the head of a pin. I see it every day when I bathe and I wonder if anyone else has noticed it.

In Haiti, a man on a big machine lifts the bloated bodies of earthquake victims into a trench for mass burial. Does the man wonder if one of these is his neighbor or perhaps even a relative? Is there a unique birthmark visible that could identify them? For these precious ones there will be no chance for identification. No burial with friends and family to share a memory, or pray a blessing or cry their grief into the funeral clothes of the loved one.

These thoughts make me want to show my birthmark to everyone I know, just in case, you know, to identify me.

© 2015 Bessie Adams Senette

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